Generally being an outspoken and free person, I had a fear of being in silence from a very young age. I did however know there were benefits in keeping silent at times, so I experimented with this several times in those days. It was always ok on the day, but I felt limited and sort of jailed in some way. Was the freedom to express myself taken away? What am I to do now? I cannot be myself and I cannot tell people to listen to me, therefore they will not know that I exist? All these kinds of thoughts used to go around in my head. So, I decided that silence is not for me.
Years went by and my spiritual self-had grown a lot, not just in age but in power. With accumulated meditation and following the right path. I decided 2020 is the decade for change and I am going to start facing my fears which somehow, I believe held me back.
I decided to attempt another Day of Silence after more than 13 years. I knew I needed a lift to get started, so the day I chose was the 18th of January. The special day of remembrance, where the atmosphere is full of light and love. Where the aim for all of us is to be like subtle angels, just like the founder of the Brahma Kumari’s World Spiritual University, father Brahma.
My day started very quiet and peaceful as always, waking up for my early morning meditation. Listening to very light instrument music I connected with my true self the soul and then the Supreme. A wonderful experience. After this I rested lightly and whilst doing so the other members, of my family were getting up. They forgot I was to be silent today and kept nudging me for attention. With a sweet smile and control over my mind, they remembered I was in silence.
As the day went by, I felt I had more power over myself and even others. Things would get done without me speaking and in such a peaceful manner. I felt respect, love and cooperation from all whom I came across. Becoming so deep and engrossed in my light form, the power just seemed to grow.
I felt, why did I put this off for so long? I am actually freer and in peace with myself and the world around me. I have so much power that I can distribute to the world to give them that inner peace. I was happy that I took the opportunity this day.
The purity and light continued to increase through the day and towards the end of the day because of the gained energy I felt the need to express once again, but gently told myself just few more hours, I can do it. Let me use this energy in a better way. When I was getting a bit restless, I knew it was a test to see my power, but I passed it and the time passed by.
I ended the day with meditation and gratitude for an amazing day and I realised the soul needs attention and the best way to give it is through this silence.
I do encourage even if you cannot do a full day, take some moment every so often and give yourself that respect and love and you will see how everything around changes for you to work out your way without saying a word.